那時的尚妤婕不過是不記事的雛兒,會任性發脾氣也是很正常的事情。尚母在經歷過被迫喪夫,被權勢壓制,被生活重壓的摧殘後,內心的弦早已緊繃得隨時會斷裂。可以說孩子那無心的行為,徹底扯斷了那一根弦。394Please respect copyright.PENANA2ydQq0StNt
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不能慣子。所以,她不再露出笑臉,永遠板著一張臉教訓孩子。只有這樣做,孩子才會遵守規矩,避免誤入歧途。394Please respect copyright.PENANA1YjobquU3x
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錢很重要。所以,她逼迫孩子專注於學業,這樣將來才能擁有高成就。這份成就越高越好,這樣就更能降低對惡勢力低頭的可能性。394Please respect copyright.PENANAIBVwHKowQb
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前期的教導最重要。所以,她嚴密控管孩子的一切。不許與壞孩子玩,因為會學壞。不許玩樂,因為容易沉溺。394Please respect copyright.PENANAtsYuW5aThF
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尚母給了自己太多的壓力,總是擔心自己教不好孩子,害怕孩子學壞。所以,她沒發現自己的精神出了問題,也沒發現孩子在她的高壓控管下也出現了問題。394Please respect copyright.PENANAwRwKk14CsL
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直到後來尚妤婕高三時,她察覺自己的女兒經常發呆,才從自己的世界中驚醒。她去諮詢了心理醫生,才發覺自己不僅精神出了問題,女兒也在自己的影響之下出現了心理疾病的跡象。394Please respect copyright.PENANAzlukO1ouTX
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所以,她想補救。偷偷去參加校慶,偷偷去看望女兒,彆扭地想和女兒一起逛校慶。可當時發現女兒極度希望自己離開時,她覺得自尊受損,也更是覺得受傷。394Please respect copyright.PENANAkWzJiFXxnw
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嘴上說離開,但尚母卻沒有真的離開。她調整了自己的心情準備等校慶結束和女兒一起回家時,沒想到廣播中聽見了驚似女兒的聲音。394Please respect copyright.PENANA5G0mhHNAy2
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鬼使鬼差地來到表演會場,看見舞台上的女兒,發現自己可能被女兒欺騙的時候,她……徹底爆發了。394Please respect copyright.PENANAyLp182CSt3
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回到家,尚母發了瘋似的翻找尚妤婕的房間,最後在一本書中找到了『罪證』。可以說,在尚妤婕回到家,那片光碟跌落之前,尚母的意識都十分混沌,有種無法自控的感覺。394Please respect copyright.PENANACra1Ch8w3s
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雖然不知道由來,但尚母也猜得出尚妤婕有多麼珍惜那片專輯。在發瘋做錯事情而清醒過來後,尚母有種說不出話的窒息感,最後只能狼狽地轉身離開,避免自己繼續做錯事情。394Please respect copyright.PENANA9JvbL1rPoh
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在趙母來電告訴她,尚妤婕跑到趙家留宿後,她先是震怒,再來擔心,最後回歸平靜。她知道自己再繼續下去只會讓母女的關係進一步惡化,她請趙母幫忙照顧孩子,還轉了一筆小錢給對方充作照顧孩子的資金,還拜託對方保密。394Please respect copyright.PENANAinCUnFdrqn
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而後,她選擇開始治療自己的疾病。病情拖得太久,醫生也說不準需要多少的時間才能痊癒。在這段時間,她選擇遠離孩子,避免自己在無法自控的情況下繼續傷害。394Please respect copyright.PENANAxXCyFXSVcL
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不知出於什麼心理,她沒有告訴任何人自己去治療心理疾病的事情。不僅公司的同事、上司不知道,趙家和自己的女兒也不知道。394Please respect copyright.PENANAShLD1vWFRT
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尚妤婕畢業那天,尚母嘴上說是出差,但其實還是來了。看著台上演講的尚妤婕,她感到自豪。她多麼想對周邊的學生家長說那是她的女兒,可她沒這麼做。最後,她看了一眼自家女兒和趙家一起和樂融融的模樣,默默地離開。394Please respect copyright.PENANA7r4kcGhW6u
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看到尚妤婕的學測成績,她不是感到引以為傲,而是有種無法言說的愧疚感。她不確定大學費用需要多少,就將一筆極大的金額轉給趙母,用以支付尚妤婕的大學費用,以及後續的照顧費用。394Please respect copyright.PENANAmbs9sH6aS2
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同樣,也是必須隱瞞孩子。394Please respect copyright.PENANAePfLhyhl8y
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原本以為事情會進展得很順利,可沒想到平時和藹好說話的趙母選擇了拒絕,並表示尚母若是真的擔心孩子,就應該由自己經手,而不是藉著她的手給予關懷。無可奈何之下,尚母只能將自己的病情托盤而出。394Please respect copyright.PENANA0mQDZIm5wR
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趙母沉默了很久。最後,她還是同意了幫忙。394Please respect copyright.PENANAllmNbY6f9C
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後來,尚母還是經常會請趙母轉告尚妤婕的情況。看著照片中的女兒,就對病情的治療充滿了動力。在病被確定痊癒的那天,尚母滿心歡喜地來到照日大學。394Please respect copyright.PENANA6YW2KldoaH
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那時的尚妤婕已經二十歲,而她正在與趙奕菱等人有說有笑,完全沒注意到門口站著一個熟悉的人影。看著女兒臉上的笑容,尚母才發現,自己好像已經很久沒有看到女兒的笑容了。394Please respect copyright.PENANAhTWfV6UdUu
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這時她才知道,自己到底做錯了多少事情,奪走了多少女兒的笑容。394Please respect copyright.PENANATvwcllApR6
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她下意識躲了起來。看著女兒離開,她發現,自己不知道該如何面對女兒了。394Please respect copyright.PENANAyBzF9FNMzJ
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如果女兒不願意繼續和自己來往,該怎麼辦?394Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZZJf6eOE2
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如果女兒不願意原諒自己,該怎麼辦?394Please respect copyright.PENANAHPVst0m6Iw
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如果……394Please respect copyright.PENANA0o0j2ROICu
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腦中閃過太多的如果,尚母此刻卻徬徨得像個孩子,完全不見平時在公司時那精明幹練的模樣。最後,她選擇了對尚妤婕避而不見。394Please respect copyright.PENANAutxSmXEbfM
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她隱瞞了自己的病情,繼續請趙母幫忙看顧尚妤婕。這次會被趙母找來,就是因為趙母發現尚母的病已經治好了,卻隱瞞不說。394Please respect copyright.PENANAxLBgwaPIf5
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趙母知道尚妤婕思念母親,也知道她今天會回來。所以,特地選在這個平時尚妤婕不會回來的日子邀請尚母來家裡,想藉此讓兩人見面交談。394Please respect copyright.PENANA1SlADCSMiK
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所以,就有了這一幕。394Please respect copyright.PENANAyL7DsveHgQ
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看著眼前憔悴了許多,滿面愧疚的尚母時,尚妤婕發現,自家母親那總是烏黑的髮上已經悄悄冒出銀絲,保養得到的面容也爬出了些許的皺紋。394Please respect copyright.PENANAYhcqUS8OEO
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尚妤婕突然察覺到,尚母好像老了許多。以前那嚴苛,讓人心生恐懼的模樣已逐漸淡去,此時尚母的模樣卻逐漸清晰起來。394Please respect copyright.PENANAW9QdbtRQ8I
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其實仔細回想,就會發現許多端倪。那些微小的細節,似乎一點一點成了印證尚母的說詞,昭示尚母對女兒的愛的證據。394Please respect copyright.PENANA63TdYD9qUf
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眼中蒙上一層水霧,呼吸微微變得急促了些。394Please respect copyright.PENANA83U6Da1sh0
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「不是的媽媽,不是妳的錯,我也有錯。如果我能夠不要這麼膽小,早點把自己的想法說出來的話,說不定早就……」394Please respect copyright.PENANAv95ZDsu3nU
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「不是妳的錯,就算早點說出來,我也不一定聽得進去……」394Please respect copyright.PENANAyip9L6gcZm
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「就算是這樣,我也不該離家出走,傷妳的心……」394Please respect copyright.PENANA7ILHHCn07K
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「我也是,不應該硬撐著面子,應該早點說出來……」394Please respect copyright.PENANAVVP1uAcVwL
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兩母女拼命地爭論著,後知後覺地發現彼此都在爭自己才是做錯的一方時,突然相視而笑了。過去十幾年的隔閡,似乎就在這一刻消失得一乾二淨。394Please respect copyright.PENANAU17U2AKyAd
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「我……可以抱一抱妳嗎?」394Please respect copyright.PENANAUyzZmwhG04
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看著尚母眼中那小心翼翼的期許,尚妤婕下意識點了點頭。被尚母小心翼翼地擁入懷中,尚妤婕原本以為自己會覺得不習慣會彆扭,沒想到卻覺得這懷抱十分熟悉溫暖,使她眷戀不已。394Please respect copyright.PENANAaXnWWAgmtd
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聽著尚母胸口的心跳聲,尚妤婕彷彿能夠看見當初才二十出頭的尚母,正一臉疼愛地哄著仍是嬰兒的自己入睡。394Please respect copyright.PENANAnr44Yr9dd0
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或許,就是因為這些已經不記得的溫暖回憶,才會讓自己一直對尚母保有孺慕之心吧。394Please respect copyright.PENANAcYmeM5SUXT
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──真好啊。394Please respect copyright.PENANAvwLVFh6z3u
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還能像真正的母女一樣相擁,真的太好了。
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