#1 Entry: Why I Started This.1102Please respect copyright.PENANAWu4Vz66xDT
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.1102Please respect copyright.PENANABD3nz3Mz7i
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAIJrUgT63tk
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.1102Please respect copyright.PENANAYm6OnsAUaj
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAuxo16H70Ma
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAfF4l1PZrEr
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAiyVJn85W1a
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAAREjueBv1O
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAdNbBdO8lTq
...1102Please respect copyright.PENANAQ80MDGWG8I
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?1102Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6cn8UIGLO
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.1102Please respect copyright.PENANAegj4MNvBP3
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)1102Please respect copyright.PENANA33npk4xNiB
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAekpQjdhhxz
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANACCEundpYYY
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?1102Please respect copyright.PENANA8jpuIu5r0W
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAKQsZEYTl5V
So calling it off, was it that bad?1102Please respect copyright.PENANAbJE0KqP137
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAJAjmwJ5xN3
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)1102Please respect copyright.PENANAU3OiPMvQTl
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAMC7RE7IATk
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAI4rnMPbtsU
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANA6KsLYStl7H
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAYLWrdtiuGS
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANACtlAKV4WYa
Henceforth, we have this. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAVuQ1NlzRkw
Thanks for bearing with me. 1102Please respect copyright.PENANAFjlRBntQKu
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